Forsaken

She looked into his eyes for the last time and sighed heavily. She did'nt want to voice her thoughts, maybe because it would hurt him. She could sacrifice her pain afterall nothing mattered anymore and she had nothing to lose. She knew he never belonged with her,all this time it was just a distant dream and now that it had faltered she could'nt come to terms with reality. Her haunted thoughts relapsed again resurfacing her past memories strewn with blood and gore. She understood he was too perfect and that eventually he would fade away cause she was full of flaws. Her conscience rebuked she fought back her tears trying to grip reality but constantly failing. She found herself helpless,vulnerable and hunted. Trying to put back the missing pieces was'nt the answer. She needed to get back on her feet. She realized how ironically she was dependent on him. His face did not reveal his thoughts but she could feel he was flinching with morose and pain. But they needed to go their separate ways afterall it was in their best interests. Their fateful paths were mysteriously interwined and each time she tried to put him out of her mind and sight he seemed to be always there. Angrily she thrust the glass at the mirror shredding it to pieces. She stared blankly at the mess and looked at herself after what seemed a decade. Nothing had changed except for the few strands of hair which had turned into a fading white colour and a few wrinkles here and there. Time had been fair to her,she realized even after the transformation she had expected to age. But what had gone wrong was it the tribe or the scarcity of the coven. She just could not figure it out. She could not hate him anymore. Once upon a time he had been the silver lining amidst the dark clouds,he had saved her from being hunted by the pack. She owes her life to him but nothing could sway her from the deep agony. She refused to accept the blow that he had finally abandoned her for good. He was the one who said it was best if they parted ways and their paths never crossed again but did he actually mean it. Was he going to come back like he did the last time. As she looked out of the window she felt a flicker of hope. Deep down she knew he was never coming back for her. Time had frozen and this time luck was'nt going to side with her. Only time would heal her wounds and she knew logic was'nt the answer to her pain...

Screwed!!!

It's almost been a month since I've last blogged. The reason for such a headline is my semester exams which are starting from monday and am totally messed up. It's been ages since I've ruffled through my books and studied something decent. We have HU on monday and it's not that simple as it seems. The standard is pretty much high and am really worried. The routine sucks. We have maths next sunday and am sure am going to perform miserably in it. Mechanics is a blunder and I've lost hope for Electrical. Moreover I have already started making plans for christmas and new year eve which is doing nothing to help my pathetic condition. I had my practicals this week and it was pretty much alright. My brain does'nt seem to be functioning at the moment[wonder why] :O

guess its the ''chap'' and tension due to the sems. Hmph on a lighter note New Moon released today and it did'nt fetch good reviews..that should be the last of my worries. I hope it extends after 24th.

Ohh and this week I watched this really cute movie ''Norah and Nick's endless playlist''. I mean the movie does'nt have a strict storyline but the way they have portrayed some emotions are really worth seeing. :) I think thats all for now. Will write some more later. Till then adios. :D

P.S-I know the ending sounds abrupt. :P

2012

Ookay so today 20 of us from our ECE batch went 2 watch 2012 at CC..the much awaited blockbuster of the year. Well honestly speaking I found the movie to be A-rated..dunno why the critics were'nt to optimistic about it. The first half of the movie was mind blowing with all the special effects and the shifting of tectonic plates. I mean itz amazing to think the amount of intelligence and how every minute detail counted in the movie..god knows what else these critics wanted from the movie..!! I seriously surfed the net and to my surprise these predictions seem to be awfully true which means our planet will be wiped off on 21/12/2012..! Well 2 more years 2 go..wonder why I am still planning 2 graduate :D Anyway after that we went to have lovely biryani at 'Aahar' thanks 2 soumya. As usual me,bini and manji started talking bhat as usual..you see it comes naturally to us :P. Anyway after a sumptuous lunch we again headed back to CC where we ''gajofied'' for a bit and enjoyed a lot. Manj n me bought this cute little ring from the jewellery stall. :) Well it was a nice outing and everyone enjoyed a lot. As usual I came back home and listened to some music[mostly metal] :D. Right now am blogging coz am pretty much useless. Got cllge 2mrw and nw dat d sem is drawing nearer I cn fl a bit of urrmmm ''chap!'' :P

Guess am gna stop here..ohh n btw I just learned that new moon is releasing this 4th of december..I mean thats g8 news..!!! :P :D So long..Peace out..!! \m/\m/

''Vampirism''

Ever since I've set my hands upon Twilight I cannot seem to forget the whole vampire and werewolf concept. I never thought I would lose my sanity to a book like this. I mean this has been an obsession and I can't get the whole damn thing out of my mind. Now that ''NEW MOON'' is going to release soon nothing is helping me to vanquish my thoughts and move on. Crap what is it that is making me to thirst for a vampire so much when my logic says they bloody don't exist!!! Any sane person would know that..but hey not me..!! Now I wish I never even touched those books. The movie worsened my situation..1st of all Robert Pattinson is there and he is like the dream guy for every girl..bla bla!! Jacob is super sesky..I mean ya should see him in NM..!! But seriously I would gladly turn into a vampire if not anything else :P. Ruvi and I had this intense discussion about this..and she's on the lookout for a vampire bf..!!! How about that.pretty amazing huh?!..Well that raises my hope..and I am looking for a silver lining soon..! AM SERIOUS..!!:D Not foolin' around..! OOKAY O HERES WISHING RUVI LUCK AND IF YOU GUYS FIND OUT A VAMPI 1ST DON'T 4GET 2 LET ME KNOW..! AND STOP GRINNING U PPL..!!!!! :P :D

Boring Weekend *yawns* :O

Hmph..of al the weekends that I've surpassed,this one has been the most boring one. Seriously attending college is far more better rather than staying at home and doing nothing..well almost. Friday was kind of fun because 1st of all cllge started pretty late and we just had one class..maths. Then we had this seminar on Communication Skills where an American Professor gave us a brief speech on the importance of english in the technical field. As usual I bugged my friends 2 ride on the motorized van on the way back home which I TELL U IS HELLUVA RIDE :D!!! Saturday dragged by and I could barely manage to kill time. Preeti had decided to meet me after her college got over..but then she got stuck and we had to cancel the plan. Anyway another thing pissed me off cause I cud'nt go to the concert at NP which I had wanted 2 attend earlier. if debi wud have bn here am sure she would have gone with me..oh well no use sulking :O. Sunday which is today..so What did I do..ohh yeah..i watched TV for 6 hours at a stretch. I watched my usual episodes of F.R.I.E.N.D.S[mind you I've watched the series like a milloin times and I still have'nt got tired of it] :D yay..! Oh I did a bit of my graphics 2..! And here I am well doing nothing..! :D :P

CC Outing with Mystica n Ruvi :)

After a lot of confusion and conviction finally me,pritz n ruvi decided 2 head over 2 CC 4 a hangout. Initially it was planned that our whole gang which comprises of 8 friends :) would go together but after a lot of narrowing down we 3 decided 2 set foot at CC. As usual ruvi came over 2 my place a bit early and we started rattling off at our usual pace,talking non-stop about college, j-a** :P,alan n ppl..! After what seemed an hour or so we met up wid pritz and headed towards our destination. The scorching heat made it unbearable for walking so we hailed a cab. ookay so leaving out the minute details we were met with a really uncommon sight..the place was technically desolated with us being the lonesome three goofing about. As usual we started checking out all the junk jewellery and ended up buying some of them. Some of them were really high priced..I mean it would burn a hole in your pocket..well in the literal sense :D Pritz n me bought this really bright green 'christmasy' sorta earring..really cute n punk types. :O After what seemed an eternity we decided to head for lunch. Half an hour went by into finalizing where and what we should eat. In the end we had this 'hog dog' which apparently did nothing 2 cover up our hunger. Hmmm okay so I finally gave into having food at KFC..as usual we went for the zinger meal and happily hogged at it :D Not 2 mention what we wrote in the Feed Back leaflets..lol. It was hilarious. Anyway next we headed over 2 SS where we totally lost our sanity by wearing expensive clothes and not bothering to buy them. At last the lady got so frustrated she practically threw us out. :P We got almost roasted in the blazing heat. Hmm we again took refuge at the food joint where me,ruvi ordered this choc. shake while pritz went for some lemon tea. EEEKS the shake tasted so sweet that it seemed we would have diabetes :P the next day n pritz tea did'nt have any lemon in it..it tasted totally like soap water hehe :D. The next thing we knew was that this guy who had a striking resemblance with that of a vampire [lol i've been into vampirism ever since twilight and true blood] :D walked right in front of us. For a few seconds I thought he might be one..now you can understand how mental I actually am. Anyway I saw one of my college mates who turned up 2 at CC n he had a hard time recognizing me since I was looking totally punk'd. Ok enough of self-praising..hehe. After an hour of 'gajanofying' we finally headed 2 our respective homes. On our way back there was this creepy guy who kept checking us out and when he got down waved gudbye 2 my friend. Some ppl r plain weird. :O lol. Well we had a really good outing and some of the things we did..man seriously some ppl wud'nt even have the guts 2 do it..lets not get into all that..hehe..!!..neway itz was nyc catching up with old friends..specially the close buddies..pritz being my oldie 4 olmst 5 years now n ruvi dating way back. :) Even though we are in differnt collges am glad we can chuck out some time and hang out together n have fun just like those gud old MHS days. :) :D

Anoda Goddamn Day

Phew..it's really been a while since I wrote in my blog..so I decided itz about time I wrote something..be it meaningful or crappy. :D Hmmphh..as usual my day kikd off at itz normal pace..woke up late..mom gave me that usual glare as I sleepily walked across my room 2 grab some breakfast. I stared at my plate..which was apparently full with 2 toasts :P n a scrambled egg. Ughhh I hate morning meals..if it was'nt 4 mom..I wud have happily skipped it..but alas 2day was not going 2 b my day. I scurried downstairs 2 check my orkut acc. as well as debz :O..ohh in case u were wnderin whuz debz..she's muh best buddy :) hehe..!! offf I've nvr really wanted 2 bunk cllge..bt as it was planned..everybody decided 2 mass bunk aftr d hectic internal examinations. This week has just breezed past without my notice..I nvr knew internals could be so much of fun..with people openly cheating..and the teachers merely scolding them..so now my hopes are pretty much high that i'l pass..well lets keep our fingers crossed..tho am not so sure about electrical..it was a major headache..n i 've started loathing Mechanics lyk Hell :O .
So I wandered around aimlessly around the house..a few calls from my friends did kill my time but nevertheless I felt kind of stupid staying at home and doing nothing. Ohh n then it suddenly hit me I had some leftover crackers from last year's 'Diwali' so I frantically searched for them n found them lying in the attic. Yay! But this tym I wn't b able 2 burn them wid popz..since hez outta town..so dis sorta saddened me 2 an extent. Neway :) aftr my search I decided 2 listen 2 some music..as usual I plugged in my iPod n started listening 2 'Blackest Eyes' by Porcupine Tree. God I've madly fallen for that song ever since I've set my eyes on that Band..'Lazarus' being my 2nd favourite pick. Ohh n Btw I got this piece of information That PT wud b cumin 2 IIT-Bombay for their fest..holy cow..!!!!! :O :O N speaking of live concerts G n R will b performing live in Bangalore Palace Grounds in November. This is unbelievable..my friend whuz studyn there is attending the concert..am furious..hw can he be o godamn lucky :( neway no use sulking. The afternoon passed away quickly..I had earlier stumbled upon a bunch of books which apparently belonged 2 my dad during his college years. Most of them were complex books based on motors n DC machines..n weird machines that comprised of big rotator coils n bla bla..I guess that was 3rd year stuff. A certain book caught my attention..it was an old french dictionary. Basically a translator which transformed an English word 2 a french 1. This book certainly caught my attention n I've been fondling with the book with utmost care :P In the evening I lit up some candles around my house n I had 2 say my neighbourhood really looked perked up 4 d 'Festival of lights'. All the houses were beautifully lit up by either candles or dose 'umm tuni bulbs' ..no not tubelyts :D hmmm aftr dat i heded ovr 2 my cousinz place where v tokd utter nonsense :P had lovley food. Ohh n sum scoops of ice-cream..!!! :D Just a while ago I've bn chatting wid Ruvi [My MHS friend n one of my best buddies]..n toking bhat as usual..n nw dat I had nuthng 2 do I decided 2 resume bak 2 my gud old blogging days..mynd U dis is my 2nd tym so forgive me if I hv'nt rilli made it dat interesting. : hehe..!! N am rilli mad at debi..itz olmost 1:30 n she still has'nt called me up yet. :P Ohh well nevermynd my eyes r rilli drooping nw..so i guess I gta stop here now..datz ol 4 2day. Tomorrow is 'Diwali' so here's wishing evry1 Happy Diwali..! :D I cud sms my frens I rilli did juz nw..n I found out that dey were charging Re 1 per sms ''sala chor''. Evn dese bonus cards don't work. :X : I knw it sounds lame but hey jus voicing my thoughts..! :P